My baby girl.

I am a mother of two wonderful little boys. The only problem is that I don't have a little a little girl of my own. When I was Pregnant with my first I wanted a little boy at the beginning. Then I was told by the ultrasound tech that she was very sure I was having a girl. I was a little disappointed at first but I got used to the idea of having my little pink bundle of joy. We picked out the name, Katie, decorated the room, bought pink dresses and blankets. We were so happy. Two weeks before my baby shower I went in for another ultrasound. Happy to see our little Katie we went in and watched her do her work. We were like Katie this and Katie that and then the tech went silent. I was freaked out and asked what was wrong? She asked what were we told about the gender of the baby? we said we were told it was going to be a girl. She said I am sorry but you are going to have a boy. We didn't believe her. so she showed his little (turtle). I was devastated at the news. I cried for weeks. I didn't know what was wrong with me, I knew I was hormonal among other things but this was crazy. I was talking to my mom and told her I was so sad and it felt almost like I lost a child. She said I was exactly right. I was planing on having this little girl named Katie and she was going to ware little pink dresses and sleep in her pink room and now all of that is gone. I have to redo everything in my soon to be child's life. Once I understood what was wrong with me I was able to come to terms with it and start bonding with this "new" baby boy growing inside of me. We removed all of the pink things and put them in storage and started replacing pink with blue. Every time I went to another ultrasound I made sure we still had boy parts in there. And finally picked out a name. By the time Matthew was born I loved him as if nothing had happened in those nine short months. I still miss not having my cute baby girl, but I'm still young I could try again someday.